Coming to Terms With Mommy Guilt

Coming to Terms With Mommy Guilt

My mommy guilt levels are through the roof right now. I’m writing this on the day before I take off for almost three weeks. And man, I think I have gone through every emotion possible.

This whole situation is like being pregnant and is paralleled as such:

  • You find out and are SO excited. The excitement stays for a while.
  • Then, you head into the “it’s normal” phase and the excitement wears off a bit, but you’re still anticipating and preparing for the upcoming event.
  • And then at the end it’s more like, “This needs to happen, and it needs to happen now. And I mean f*&%ing now!!!”

I recently had the conversation with Dave that I just need it to be time to go. I am struggling with trying to be everything and do everything, and I need a break to go and focus on one thing.

This is what we, as parents, do. All the time. I am no different. The only difference now is that I’m blogging about it and actually putting it into words.

But we all feel the same. We all have busy schedules and deal with the ups and downs of mommy guilt — the happiness, sadness, craziness, and everything in between. As I’ve gone through this journey over the last few months, I’ve taken my lumps, both physicallyand mentally.

And, I have two main conclusions.

1. The grass is always greener. Or so we think.

I have been a stay-at-home mom and thought: “Well, if I worked and I just got out of the house, I would have more sanity, and everything would be better!”

I’ve also been a working mom and thought: “Holy cow, if I could just stay at home and spend more time with my kids, everything would be better!”

The last two years have put me in a place where I have had to wear many (sometimes too many) hats. And I’ve come to the conclusion that wherever we are at that moment in time, it’s going to be hard. Plain and simple.

We can easily romanticize the other option, convincing ourselves that its the “easier” or “better” option. But, no matter what, IT’S ALL REALLY HARD! So we may as well get used to it.

The quicker we embrace the challenge, the quicker we stop wasting our time in the fantasyland of “easier” parenting, which, I can guarantee, is a fictitious world that only exists in the movies.

2. Mommy guilt is real.

And since it’s not going anywhere, we may as well turn it into something positive. In my case, mommy guilt has helped me get things done.

As I was preparing to leave, my mommy-guilt was in full swing. So I did a Grace-filled Monday, just the two of us. Tuesday was a day with Will, Wednesday was Jack’s day and Thursday was Family Day. And I cherished those special moments, regardless of Dave telling me I was leaving for three weeks, not three years.

Instead of beating myself up, I tried to turn the mommy guilt into something to feel good about, something memorable. And, no, it wasn’t easy. But I tried really hard because, you know, I actually care. I realized that mommy guilt comes from a place of caring. So feel good that you are a mom who truly cares!

Whether you feel guilty about taking time for yourself, for cleaning the house instead of going outside on a nice day, for spending more time with a needy child than with your other children, or, in my case, leaving for the summer to play softball, just remember, it’s going to be okay.

Nothing is going to make it easier, not even that fantasy life where the grass is greener. Just rest your head on your pillow at night knowing you are mom that loves your children so much you feel guilty about every little thing.

And if all else fails, grab a bottle of wine, call a friend, discuss the reasons why you both suck, and make each other feel better. You’ll never get rid of mommy guilt altogether, but you can stop trying to be the “perfect mom.” Despite what Pinterest may show us, that woman simply doesn’t exist.

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